The Fear of God

I'm the very first to admit that I'm a control freak. A control freak who constantly worries about perfection and how I can control my very turbulent future. I'm quick to put hands around life's throat and shake it into submission. If things aren't within my jurisdiction, I begin to worry. Worry about the outcomes, worry about how those very outcomes will affect me and whether I can control how i'm affected. Before I know it, i'm falling down a rabbit hole of doubt in which I cannot claw my way out of. Of late though, I've been finding myself exhausted by my authoritative gene. But even so, I can't leave my future to just...be. I can't just live with "What will be, will be." Then how do I learn to deal? 1 answer, 1 word, 1 power: God.

God's plans are beyond my own and greater than i could every even begin to imagine. It's hard to even come to the conclusion that I am putting my fate into the hands of someone that I can't even see but when I begin to think upon all the things that have happened because of praying to him, i couldn't imagine having it any other way.

It is scary though. That's the real fear of God. Scary to think that a divine power above me is controlling my future and making plans beyond what I can see. But that's where faith comes into play. I have faith in the fact that God will make the hard decisions that I can't, faith in who he allows into my life and who he allows to exit from my life just as well.

This is a super short post, my bad. Just wanted to share my thoughts.

- I have a piece about relationships coming soon that I think you all will want to read, we'll chat soon AubreeKhyleStyle Xx